Loving my Father

November 19, 2009

I love him, I do; despite everything

It’s probably because he taught me to love

Fiercely, relentlessly and above all unconditionally

I feel cheated and defeated, the waiting brings pain

No one is perfect, I take back the blame

We both have had our faults

I want him to watch me grow

Into the woman he taught me to be

I want him to be there when I fall in love again

I want him to protect me

When my heart is overcome with insecurity

And hold me tight; when I come back home

I search for the strong man that I once knew

All I find is something completely askew

It makes me feel insane

Keep living, I persist

The fight has yet to begin

I will love you like never before

Proud, forgiving and with a force

Like an unscarred woman

I love you, I do

The way you taught me how

Fiercely, relentlessly and above all unconditionally

Ps. I wrote this poem when Achen (my father) was first diagnosed with Gastric Cancer in February 2008. He passed away on the 16th of October 2009 after 60 strong years this lifetime. Like any other relationship our was a tough one, with ups and downs, agreements and disagreements, arguments and so much unconditional love. The last three lines were my final goodbye to him, by his grave.

My father made me an independent, strong woman not afraid to be who I am. I have recently found some of his writings and credit him for my talent. Thank you for the words Achen, Forever your daughter

Mayo su Luz brillo dentro me , y convalido Usted para siempre! Te Amo!